BUZZIN' BUZZIN';

I’m in a really scary place right now where life isn’t defined in any way, shape, or form. It’s 10:00 at night and I’m in bed with my cat. As much as this bonding time with Mittens was needed, I’m getting really antsy waiting for Ryan to do the “right thing.”

Where do I go from here, Tumblr? I just want proof that it’s real. Am I asking too much of him? Do I just call him instead of waiting for him to call me? Will my anxiety go away if I call him? Is this relationship going where I think it’s going?

I find myself asking all of these questions. It leaves an uneasy feeling in my gut; some unfinished business in my soul. I’m at the point where I would rather just stay at home than do anything… With the idea that no one will even notice I’m gone. I’m not sure if I want to know the answer, but there’s only one way to find out.